Just wanna say something. this is somewhat like reflection.
everyone leads their own life differently. so here's mine.

Having a positive attitude is good. I feel that everything to do must have that lil bit of positive. For my case, I would say even in the serious of things, there should be a bit of fun to everything. I simply can't take it if I were to be so mature and try to keep my emotions inside and all. Too much emotions inside could make you sick.

Having fun also means that I simply relax. So as much as possible, I don't make enemies. Hell, I don't even try to make enemies.

MJ death's really hit the world. Despite all the bad things he had done, he still is a pop idol that no one will every forget. He's a legend. However this sets me thinking. A lot of people was so devastated that MJ was gone. So does this means that only death would make us recognize how much we value that person? I hate to say it, u wanna be treasured? you have to be dead.

Labels: death

Been such a long time since I updated this little online journal. Well, life has been alright for me. Republic Polytechnic isn’t the best poly around. Some even said it’s the best ITE. Heck it. As long it provides me another opportunity to gain that next step in life and that piece of paper, it’s worth it. Friends down there are alright. There are problems but not so serious though. The problems are not even related to me! I’m pretty clean. I feel a relationship is a long way for me. Haven’t found the right candidate yet. Not even a target. I think that has to be with my way of seeing things. Every time I see a girl with makeup, minah is the first word that came up my mind. Fuck it. It’s a really hard habit to throw. I miss having someone special. I’m so jealous of those who are having a lovely relationship. The feeling that you and her are in your own world, not caring anyone around. The feeling where you know she’s there for you even though she’s not around. Makes you smile and laugh about the simplest thing. The feeling where she makes you feel lucky having her. The cutest and sweetest girl who loves for just who you are. God isn’t fair to me in this department.

Anyway, other than school, there’s music and cigarettes. Music has been my inspiration for a long time. It’s a way to show my inner side which I rarely shows to people. I improve a lot on the guitar and bass. The sessions at Iman’s house really help me a lot. Rock/Alternative/Rock n Roll is what the band is achieving. It’s been my dream to play in a band. Sharing our music to the world. Having that feeling enjoying yourself in your own song. Music is like everything to me. All Time Low is my greatest inspiration. Their fashion sense and their guitar riffs simply blew me. The singer could sing too. Their new album’s coming out this 7th July. Gotta have it. As for cigarettes, after much smoking, I felt that it’s now a way of my lifestyle. To those who think that I’m smoking to act cool and all that stuff, bullshit. It’s now a need to smoke. Screw you for not understanding my life. As for the house, the renovations are still going on. I’m seeing the differences. It looks pretty cool especially the toilet.

A refer to a post of Ashraf’s blog about people change. Yes, I had seen a lot of changes in life and people around me. Some for the good and the bad. As for me, I personally think I change in certain situations. Yes, I agree that I have mature and grown up for the better. Certain situation makes me focus and some makes me laugh. I think we all had reached to a stage to take the next level. No more pri or sec school. That’s the past. Now for the present. Let’s not all forget that not we ourselves are not the only ones growing up, everyone is growing up as we speak. That’s life.

Bottom line: Life’s alright except for girls, music and cigarettes. I can’t help it in the music and cigarettes part. Music being that others are taking their O’s and cigarettes’s price are fixed by the government. Still looking for that girl. Maybe put up an Ad or something.